It was a warm, clear August morning; few remnants of the monsoon clouds scumbled the powder-blue sky. The shrine had opened several hours ago, although there hardly seemed to be anyone around apart from a frolicking black topaz-eyed goat–its owner unseen–and
three middle-aged men in rumpled white kurta-pajamas disembarking from a
Toyota Innova. It was still too early, perhaps, for people to thread
their way towards a shrine in middle of the Rajasthani country-side, no matter how exhaustive their lists of favors to cadge from the higher forces.
A
teenage boy in gray trousers and long-sleeved plaid shirt stood behind
the shrine, evidently having assumed responsibilities as both the priest
and the shrine caretaker;
on meeting us, he asked no questions but responded readily to ours.
Watching him laconically talk about the shrine, I was unable to place
the expression on his face: boredom or indifference? Perhapshe
perpetually wore this expression, his only accessory. When I requested
him to tie the sacred saffron and red thread–a talisman–
around my wrist, he did so, ensuring the knot was tidily secure. “It
will only fall off when it has to,” he remarked even before I had asked.
A
lean, diminished woman in a green sari prostrated in front of the
shrine, alternately singing and rapidly uttering incantations; her eyes
remained fastened shut throughout, seemingly possessing no volition to
open. Her husband, presumably, silently sat next to her, almost as if he
had happened to be in her proximity merely by chance and,
thus, bore her no recognition. It was only when she began to sob, the
music of her singing having disintegrated into bald sounds of
desperation, that he laid a comforting palm on the small of her back, as
if to remind her that he still existed and was part of that world which
she so urgently wished a respite from.
Beyond the shrine, a monsoon rain-fed pond glimmered, occasional islands of shine
speckling the pond’s otherwise mirror-hard surface. Trees stood
ankle-deep in the water at edges of the pond; they looked awkward and
uncomfortable, ostensibly appreciating the sudden invasion of water in
their midst,
yet simultaneously resenting it for having disturbed the existing
landscape. For me, though, it was serenity post-carded and I stood by
the wall looking down at the pond, reveling in the scene’s seeming
inviolability: the pond, the trees, and the hillocks girding the pond,
plumed with startling green bursts of monsoon foliage.
Glancing
upwards and beyond the hillocks, I then noticed the clump of four
acacia trees, extravagantly festooned with yards of candy-hued ribbons
and metallic tinsel: they looked like surreal Christmas trees blooming
in the desert. I wondered if these trees bore any relation to the many
other such similarly dressed trees I had encountered during my travels
in Rajasthan. I had bestowed the appellation of wish trees upon them:
trees bedecked with tinsel-fringed red ribbons, threads, and jewelry,
the branches laden with innumerable wishes and yearnings of those who
had reposed their unwavering trust and faith within their sacred
embrace.
“What are those trees?” I asked the teenage priest while he sorted out the prasad an elderly man had just offered to the shrine deity.
“Ghost
trees,” he replied, after a pause. “Once people have been exorcised of
ghosts and spirits that possess them, they toss these ribbons and
garlands onto the trees.”
I instinctively turned around and began to walk towards the trees only to find him urgently calling out to me.
“You shouldn’t go near them,” he blurted out. “No one ever goes near them.”
“Why?” I asked. “Ghosts aren’t there anymore. They have all gone away, right?”
“But
still…” His voice faltered, as did his expression; he then almost
immediately regained his authority. “You just shouldn’t go there. If you
want, you can still look at them from here, though,” he added.
Suddenly,
although noon was yet to come upon us and the sunlight was still new, I
found myself imagining the trees by night, especially on a full-moon
night. I saw the tinsel of the ribbons glittering in the ivory
moonlight, the trees themselves dark and indistinguishable beneath the
mass of ribbons that lived within their branches. Unlike the wish trees,
which were accustomed to bidding farewell to one fulfilled wish after
another, the ghost trees seemed crammed with tenants that had no other
place to go apart from these very branches. And yet, the trees– too ironically enough–had become pariahs themselves through the very act of giving shelter to these spiritual pariahs. For some reason, although I still wanted to see the trees up close,
I found myself impelled to go no further. I merely gazed at the trees
from the distance, noting that they were still in sufficient intimate
proximity to the shrine whilst standing in a clump of isolation.
“I
wonder what the other trees make of them,” I said, half to myself; the
teenage boy shrugged, suspicion briefly clouding his eyes before turning
into relief at the thought that I had not decided to commit the
transgression, after all. “Well, can I photograph them, at least?” I
asked. He nodded and having been convinced that I would not venture
towards the trees, he returned to assume his responsibilities at the
shrine, stoking the faith of the many that now lingered in front of the
deities.
After photographing the trees, I made my way toward
the pond below. I stood by the water, inspecting the jagged inroads it
had made into the soil and the yellow tufts of blossoms that the trees
had shed, which
now littered the surface of the water. Near the pond, I then noticed
that a tree stood inside a circle of white-painted stones: sun-bleached
images of Hindu divinities and tinsel-fringed saffron flags were planted
into the dried mud banked around the exposed tree roots. Here, the tree
was a shrine in itself, eliciting, and indeed, bestowing faith and
trust – and yet, meters away, a lakshmanrekha of fear and mistrust encircled the ghost trees, preventing them from ever being approached. Through
no fault of their own, they had become repositories of apparent
spiritual detritus – and were condemned for it. Yet, they nonetheless
continued to live and thrive with dignity.
As I bade farewell to the shrine, my eyes strayed towards the ghost trees one last time:
they now appeared to clinically survey me just as I had surveyed them
earlier and when I turned my face away, I could feel their gaze briefly
linger upon me, questioning before assuming indifference.
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This piece was originally published in Issue 12 of Outside in Literary and Travel magazine
Photographs taken by me
this is so interesting. and so nicely written... maybe next time we meet up we should talk about "bhoot ki kahanis"... they are my absolutely fav... also i was thinking.. imagine if you took the picture.. and them came home to see a blank picture on your computer... EEIKKSS!!!!! :P..
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DeleteThank you so much! I also love bhoot ki kahanis as long as we are discussing them in broad daylight otherwise toh...;) Actually, I had taken several pictures of those trees and wanted them to accompany the piece but I somehow couldn't find those pictures - they have vanished somewhere;)Now make whatever you will of that...!
So beautifully written Priyanka, I thoroughly enjoyed and visualized your experience. I really felt sad for those trees, they stand silent and bearing what the humans impose on them for no fault of theirs, would love to go and give them a big hug :-)
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DeleteReally appreciate your words, Padmaja! I have always been drawn towards trees and the thought of these ones being pariahs, so to speak, affected me too...
Awww at wanting to give them a big hug:)